Monthly Archive for September, 2007

Sara Sidle – CSI

Published on September 28, 2007 by Corinna Carlson | 0 Comments

Well, well, well, what a fantastic season opener, the desert sure dries up fast.

So, as we all know Sara lives and it was edge of your seat and that crazy girl Natalie Davis [played by Jessica Collins] is CRAZY as crazy can be. Her performance was pretty good she was extremely believable and she scared me and I loved all the whispering to herself and basically she was just freaky. I don’t watch Heroes so I have no idea if she is good on that show but now I actually have a reason to watch it other than being told to.

I decided that Sara was going to live pretty early on in the episode because I figured even though she has been a part of every season in some way that they wouldn’t spend a whole episode on her just to kill her, but that was just my thinking who knows maybe she is going to get a full hour when she does leave in NOVEMBER! Spockette and I have been talking about this over MSN for a couple days now and I woke up to text messages on last night’s episode because I watched it on Eastern time and she watched it on our time. I was in bed sick and trying to sleep by 7:30pm.

When the episode ended I didn’t cry or anything, I had to turn to Adam and advise him of this as I was sniffling because of my stupid nose but I did throw my arms up in the air in triumph because Adam, Spockette and various other friends I’ve talked to were pro Sara leaving/dying and I have always liked her, I relate to her, NOT in a my mom shot my father kind of way just in a she suffers from depression and isn’t afraid to flip out at work even at the risk of being fired. That being said when Spockette sent me this article over MSN this morning I became pissed off and now I’m sad but it sounds like they are going to do it up right and I seriously can’t wait for the her and Gil back story line.

I know a lot of people are not going to miss her but I think Gil and I will, but for different reasons, I think Gil is going to be really sad without her, and if they are a couple they are doing it and stuff, he’ll miss that, I’ll just miss her because she’s gone.

Sick as a dog and stuff

Published on September 27, 2007 by Corinna Carlson | 0 Comments

I am not feeling well, in fact I am feeling ill, I have chills and a really bad even worse than *normal* headache, sore ears a mild fever, a plugged nose and sore throat with sexy voice and cough. To be ‘sick as a dog’ you do actually have to be barfing but because the meaning of the term is so sparse on the internet I really don’t care and I’m using it anyway because I’m a baby and I don’t have to be barfing to feel like ass or use the term. I’ll use it if I want to. I’M SICK AS A DOG! I have been since Monday evening, THAT is when it started a small twinge of throat pain entered around 11:30pm after spending some time with friends. As far as I know everyone else is fine. I had a few days of insomnia so maybe I was a target for germs or something because my immune system was weak. I’ll never know. The thing that really bugs me about being sick so early in the year is that normally leads to a season of getting ‘everything’. Last ‘season’ I think Adam got really sick once and me twice. And getting a cold is just SO not what it used to be, you’d get sick for a day or two maybe three and then you were fine, good to go, but now everything lasts for bloody EVER, and the flu, or the flu combined with a cold don’t even get me started.

I also hate being sick because all of my co-ordination is thrown off and I can’t play play station, which means NO GUITAR HERO! as if I even had to remind you what it means. I can’t read either, I keep having to read the same sentence over and over and over, so there is little point. I also write really shitty, if you could only see how many words were missing, but you can’t because I’ve read it back over and made it readable.

Unless the Vancouver Civic Strike ends and we could actually go golfing and I’m still sick I won’t start freaking out. I had other things I was going to mention but my head has turned to glue this post is so much more effort than I thought it would be. I’ll be back soon. Or maybe Adam will post if you ask him nice.

“you and I’ll just use a little patience”

Published on September 24, 2007 by Corinna Carlson | 0 Comments

So, anyone notice how I haven’t been writing about my depression at all for quite some time now? Me too. For starters I did have to pay the $140.00 for the missed appointment due to the stupid last minute migraine but it turned out it was $140.00 and not $170.00 like I originally thought. Just goes to show that I take it extremely serious and almost never miss sessions anymore like I did in the first couple of years.

Turns out that sleeping almost all week is still progress. Last Friday I walked in and said, “I seriously had THE MOST unproductive week ever”, and he said, “the most”, and I said, “YES, the MOST”. But apparently the work I am doing while awake is still counting for something.

Although I know that it is normal for me to fall into a depressive hole around this time of year I am also being exceptionally avoidant of certain situations but at the same time exercising skills and changes to my behavioral patterns. Right now I am practicing a lot of restraint I am in control of what I do and don’t do, I have always taken responsibility for my actions but this is different in that it is about not reacting to things, not giving people power over me, asking myself is what I am doing or thinking right now empowering me or dis-empowering me? Keeping at this way of living and not being too hard on myself when in my opinion I fail in these areas is a very trying process. Being at the beginning of my fifth year in therapy when my world falls apart around me, I fall a part to Adam, I fall a part to the extent I allow myself to in therapy, even after four full plus years I am still guarded in some areas and I am unable to completely let go in sessions. You know, busting out the ugly cry, it almost NEVER happens. But the thing is I have the skills now to deal with things like an adult, not involving people that needn’t be involved, choosing who I trust with my problems carefully, sitting back and observing a situation fully before reacting. I am at a place in my therapy where I can step outside of myself completly and look in on a situation, see it for exactly what it is, what it isn’t, I can view it with vast clarity. Where the problem comes in is having the confidence in myself to practice it all the time. I’m learning meditation methods to go with the breathing exercises I already know that Adam always asks me if I’ve done before I take an extra Clonazepam. I’m trying to live with a more open mind, a curious mind but with awareness and acceptance of myself and of others, I’m learning to be way less judgmental and focusing on letting go.

Corinna Carlson Every Friday I walk over the bridge and I sit on the couch but lately it has been different it’s been more about me being fucking awesome and me deserving nothing but fucking awesomeness, I guess the difference is that now I’m at the point in therapy where according to my shrink there is no reason for me not to believe it and making that a daily truth is probably the hardest task I’ve faced in therapy yet, because there is no doubt about it and he does know that I am dealing with some pretty extreme anxiety at present but all I can do is what I am doing and that is try.

My September Lineup

Published on September 21, 2007 by Corinna Carlson | 0 Comments

I must ask you to please answer a question for me in my comments, IF you watch CSI Las Vegas I would REALLY LIKE TO KNOW if you think Sara Sidle is going to live or die in the premiere next week. I say she is going to live because I love her, but Adam thinks she is going to die. And in a way her dying does make sense because I just don’t see how they can work a relationship that is out in the open between them on the show, I just don’t see it. The preview for the premiere is dramatic I saw it like ten times last night while watching last season’s finale again. I can’t wait to see how many different hair styles Nick and Greg have this season. PLEASE NO MORE MUSTACHES ON PONCHO!!!!!

That basically brings to me woo hoo next week is premiere week, except that CSI Las Vegas is really the only show I watch anymore that has a September start date, side from ELLEN of course.

Don’t count out our love of shit reality tv though. We somehow got into last season’s Beauty and the Geek and it looks like we are going to watch it this season as well. They played Rilo Kiley in the premiere. Kid Nation looks awesome but we missed it watching America’s Next Top Model, no other reality tv show gets us going like America’s Next Top Model, maybe the Canadian edition but the Canadian edition doesn’t have Tyra and half the the joy watching America’s Next Top Model is waiting to see what drag queen wanna be outfit Tyra is in each week, and ain’t no black woman got a weave like Tyra’s OH NO THEY DON’T. Monday brings the start to Dancing With the Stars, I’m not sure I really like any of the people dancing this year so I may NOT watch it. Apollo just stole that whole bloody show last season. Can’t say I’m not looking forward to him competing here in the 2010 Olympics.

Lost and 24 don’t start till when January? I’m too lazy to check. I got a text message from my buddy yesterday saying that Tony is back on 24, I don’t remember what I responded but it was something like THAT IS BULLSHIT and I got a text back in agreement. I REALLY hope not BUT, 24 just might drop off my radar this year. I love me some Jack Bauer but as my buddy said, “they may as well just bring Palmer back too”. Lost has the potential to be a great season. But it isn’t on yet so that is all I can say. I don’t read rumor sites or anything I read the odd link I get sent on shows I like but that is about it.

Big Love recently ended on HBO, I love everything about Big Love it is by far my favorite show right now and thankfully Adam likes it, they have really and I mean really set the show up to bust out a completly beyond awesome third season. I SO HIGHLY recommend this show either rent it, torrent it just WATCH IT!

And before I go, Bionic Woman premiers on Wednesday and I was a production assistant on set for re shoots for the pilot, the novelty of watching the shows I work on hasn’t really worn off yet and I get really excited when I can run up to the tv and say IM STANDING RIGHT THERE, RIGHT THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so I am sure I will be checking it out. One of my friends already watched it via torrent before they replaced one of the characters hence the re shoots and HE said it isn’t terrible but it isn’t great, I won’t care I just worked on it, isn’t like I wrote it, cast it and star in it or anything.