Right now I am feeling like emotional crap. This doesn’t mean I am not still experimenting with this happy business it just means I’ve hit a glitch, a big one. [pertinent post coming]
I’m trying to take my mind off it and look at it from some more angles before I write on it or it will be a gong show. Granted avoiding dealing with my most recent issue is really only making it worse. It is family related I am SO done with any and all blog drama.
I’m known to be a pretty plain Jane. I do have a girly side I just grew up a sporty tom boy. I’m too lazy to wear much makeup and mascara doesn’t even make me happy anymore because false eyelashes are all the rage and I swear the funniest thing I ever got picked on for in high school was supposedly having fake lashes the teasing started in 1990. YES there are much worse things to be picked on for, trust me the bullies had me covered. 
I do get my lashes tinted on occasion because it makes me feel pretty. I find that because I have a face covered in peach fuzz that wearing any sort of cover up is literally impossible to get even on my skin. I also can not stand the feel of makeup and have probably eaten at least a tube of lipstick and I hardly ever wear it because I eat and pick my lip skin off constantly it is pretty disgusting but an interesting example of how when you make an effort to stop a compulsive behavior it often manifests itself into a different behavior and can take a while to accept that is all you have done and have to start over.
Shall I get to the point?
Due to the copious amounts of pot I have been smoking for years, more than I will admit to most people; though let us not forget that addictions are generally intensely private to the individual, I find myself with very dark circles under my eyes. I’m used to this, but it has become more obvious to me as of late. Extra water intake and extra moisturizing was not cutting it. Even if I were to quit smoking pot completely it takes approximately two months before your skin starts to lose the grayish tone that sinks in and only adds to the eye circles.
When it comes to products primarily marketed towards women and the refusal to let us age gracefully I rarely get sucked in. I exfoliate my face in the shower and my body using two different St. Ives products, they are inexpensive products that work. I use Olay moisturizer on my face because they are generally one of the only mid-price range lines of beauty products I have any interest or faith in; although I also use St. Ives body moisturizer because I have super sexy chicken scratch skin on the back of my arms and top of my legs.
I purchased Olay Regenerist Eye Lifting Serum hoping it would reduce my dark circles and it didn’t work, so I went into The Body Shop where years ago I bought this under eye gel one of my straight male friends used and so I had to try it and because it was gel it was cool and soothing. The novelty wore off fast I was twenty-young something and didn’t even have dark circles. But I explained my totally superficial insecure eye situation and they told me to put my Olay in the fridge. This made for soothing application but it kept not absorbing right and getting in my eyes and making them redder than they already are and it was pissing me off.
I recently started using Garnier’s Skin Renew, anti-puff eye roller because I fell pretty hard for the cool feeling of the Olay serum under my eyes I just didn’t want to lose my eyesight due to fire eyes. This Garnier eye roller had me pretty intrigued for someone who although writing a page plus post on a bloody eye serum doesn’t get excited about just any girly products. Nic’s Sticks by OPI were my last must have girl product and that took place in July and was egged on by my lust for Target and the exclusivity to Target anything because I am a sucker.
I’m going to go out on a completely uneducated limb here and admit that I highly doubt caffeine is good for your skin. But this eye roller works and it feels like you are at the spa for that six seconds it takes to apply. I noticed almost instant results my puffiness and dark circles have dramatically decreased and it is not just my imagination.
I am still skeptical because I used Proactiv Solution for years back when it still cost almost seventy dollars Canadian for a three month supply. Although this product was fantastic for helping clear up the adult acne I suffered through-out my twenties it was not without side effects and has left me with pock marks which are not flattering.
For now I am enjoying that girlish feeling I get when I know that no one even looks at my under eye skin or notices the bags I see but the bizarre permission I feel to act girly makes me hope the caffeine doesn’t make my skin shrivel up like raisins.
