I had a lot of posts that I had hoped to get up before the end of the year but I ended up spending most of the time worried sick about a friend, helping said friend and spending time with said friend so I was unable to finish the last of my 2009 posts, said friend is ok now; and even though we plan nothing for Christmas we ended up out more than usual, where I learned that it is no lie the new Star Trek does in fact look better on a massive HD TV on a Blue-ray and let me just BITCH here for a second because OF COURSE the Blue-ray copy has way more special features than the regular ol’ DVD. It has a gag real but NO deleted scenes. #SuckitDVD you may as well be a fucking VHS tape. So then I thought I will make a To Post / To Do list for 2010. NOT resolutions.

I guess I make it a resolution to not make any. If I want to change something about myself I’ll change it, resolutions, shmesolutions.

Here is a funny photo of me on Christmas Eve. It was Adam’s idea, on our walk, to use the Red Olympic Mittens as beer holders and they were tall cans and thus were a perfect fit, genius. Holy he will SO fit in when I take him up north. We have plans to eventually head up north with one of my very best friends and his lovely lady friend who I have come to love dearly as well, as it turns out he and I have both lived in Smithers and Terrace so we have a lot of wonderful things to show our significant others. I’m more excited about Smithers, the beauty of the place is undeniable. I think we should hit Terrace first or it’ll be an even worse let down.

In the year 2010 I would like to accomplish some if not all of these things that I will discuss below but they are more like goals, things I think about when it isn’t just the Christmas season.

• Finish my Bali series. I still have shit loads of great stories and photos to share, one that is pretty hilarious yet painful, and photos that although are on my Flickr have not been posted here. And now with returning in April, which was the plan until yesterday and is now up in the air due to Adam being laid off, I’m given even more reason to finish that series. I’m also planning to continue to try and get this charity off the ground with me dad.

• Re-write my about page and continue to learn how to use Wordpress properly and get myself moved to a new template.

• I’d like to have February 4th pass this year and remember my dear friend PH as he was, loving, brilliant, someone who believed in me no matter what people said, someone who should still be here, but isn’t, I just want to remember him fondly. I want to give myself permission to remember the good times, and not re-hash and relive the loss in such detail as I have done for the last few years now. I want to free myself from the guilt and the pain, but I won’t know if I can do it until the date approaches.

• I get asked a lot of questions as a blogger, some on Twitter that are too long for 140 character responses and deserve a post, others over email, and in comments, I’d like to start a series this year where I take it a step further than responding to all of my lovely comments which I appreciate so very much and am very thankful for and writing the posts. (with the persons’ anonymity kept if they choose). I get asked some heavy shit, that if I wasn’t a lazy blogger I’d have posted on ages ago. I have actually apologized to people I’ve promised posts for and I’m now putting it into writing I’m going to engage you all more by posting what you wanna know.

• Read at least 20 books, I missed my quota again this year damnit. But I mentioned to Adam that I wanted to try and take the 50 book a year challenge (yeah right who am I kidding) and his response was “but that would mean we won’t get to spend as much time together.” *swoon* I love my husband. 20 books it is.

• Get the 2010 Calendar Wars post up.

• Get through the Olympics with moisture, the essence of wetness, still left in my body from all of the glorious uncontrollable joy crying that I have just learned to go with and take as it comes.

• Show up at events I’m invited to, no matter the guest list. February will be my first test.

• NO MORE FAIR WEATHER DICK FUCK ASSHOLE USER FRIENDS.

• And last but not least continue to be myself again on my blog, stop letting feelings of victimization keep me from writing my mind and letting my depression issues keep writing themselves into stories of the past and present. There are some things in my past I’d really like to find the balls to write about this year, I’ve dealt with them, but there is no doubt these are situations that should be talked about, not to rehash, to educate.

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