anything that reminds me of high school can send me off on CRAZY rants
if you are reading this then my internet has finally come back on line
not in a good mood right now. i have had no internet since early yesterday afternoon. it makes me feel naked. im also looking for work right now and really need to do research.
i’ve got house work to do, books to read. but i can’t be bothered i’m just grumpy. i have so much on my mind that i couldn’t even relax for one fucking hour and enjoy my pilates class last night. instead i fell all over the place and made a legitimate ass of myself. maybe i should go five pin bowling to make myself feel better.
i feel like i can’t write right now but i have so much to say, it has all bottled itself up and is giving me a ridiculous headache. there are words floating around up in my head that if given the chance could probably write five or six good worth reading posts right now but they won’t come out.
right now im preoccupied with beyond lame annoyance because last time i was offline for more than a day i was unlinked somewhere (i did contact the blogger to enquire, but i would not bother doing it again were i to notice it somewhere else). this just SCREAMED high school to me. i was sick and adam was sick and i have like five full folders of blogs i try to read so fuck me for being sick and taking a few days off. my stats do not work the way the ones that you can sign up for with any free blog. i pay for this site, my stats actually protect the privacy of the reader and if you ‘haven’t been by in few days’ i likely wouldn’t know, unless of course you are a regular commenter but i likely wouldn’t care (too much). people have lives and shit to do. OBVIOUSLY if i have linked you i am dedicated to your blog, does that mean i have time to read it every day? FUCK NO. there are lots of people out there that i want to read my blog every day, do they? FUCK NO. but i am very thankful for every single one of my readers whether they read me once a month, once a week or the preferred once a day, and i also appreciate them ALL whether they comment or not.
one of my closest girlfriends hardly ever knows what the fuck i’m talking about when i talk about my blog or what i have been writing about, it just doesn’t seem to be her thing and it totally annoys the fuck out of me, but guess what? there are things i do that annoy her to no end. so if some of my closest friends don’t read my blog every day how can i, or anyone for that matter expect complete strangers to? (until you become blogger buddies of course). i DID NOT start this site so i could allow myself to get wrapped up in the childish side of linking and commenting (but here i am writing about it) if anything considering my experiences with high school i plan to avoid all of that shit like the plague. i started this site because i have experienced a lot of really interesting yet fucked up things in my 28 years and have had some experiences that i want to write about not to whine or relive but just to help even if it is just one person whose kid is being bullied in school and may have gone through what i did or worse in school (for example). i don’t want ‘credit’ i want people to know that even though all of this shit happened i’m still here. it is only my insecurities and fear that have prevented me from starting to write my ‘stories’. but i also wanted to build a reader base first and the pettiness of linking or not linking and commenting or not commenting is just not my idea of fun. my all or nothing thinking is telling me to just remove ALL of my links. it is becoming very clear why some bloggers don’t link anyone. but i think i will just keep doing MY thing, like i have since day one and if you like what i have to say or even if you don’t but still come back, THANK YOU, i may not know who you are but i get the numbers!
November 9th, 2005 at 7:33 pm
I love you Corrina!
I know all about bad moods.
And being without the internet. The move almost killed me.
November 9th, 2005 at 8:34 pm
You can delete my link if it’ll make you feel better. As long as you don’t stop reading.
November 9th, 2005 at 8:56 pm
[b]Binsk and Paul:[/b] you are both two of my favourites and you have both been by me from the beginning! you’d have to ban me before i’d stop reading either of you
November 9th, 2005 at 8:59 pm
hmm.. about high school: i liked nothing about it.
also. personally.. my button links.. are for me. i’m not doing anyone a favor with them being there. they are more handy than a bookmark. that said.. i do have at least 1 i need to get rid of because he doesn’t even POST on that blog anymore.
you could totally unlink me too. i know it’s not because you don’t like me anymore.
November 9th, 2005 at 9:24 pm
im not going to unlink anyone…im doing this thing were i don’t let my all or nothing thinking run my life anymore…it’s been working really well for me
i only unlink if people don’t update or ‘disappear’.
my links are the blogs i read, cept some i have been lazy about putting up cause tab reading makes it easy to get linking lazy. im glad you understand what i am saying/ranting though!
and you were the VERY first!
November 9th, 2005 at 11:40 pm
i am ‘un-linkable’.go on,try it.your head will explode and your vagina will heal up.like,INSTANTLY.
high school was gay.fun but gay.
HAH! loved the tea towel poses corinnnna!sexypants was kinda hoping for one with adam in……..
true about non-blogging friends.NONE of my mates blog and ive stoppped mentioning it as their faces explain that even though theyre nodding and larfing,they have absolutely no idea what im talking about.gayLORDS! xoxox
November 10th, 2005 at 1:23 am
Hey
Being grumpy Sucks Ass. Happens to me all the time and is such an effort to stop!
I would NEVER EVER want to relive my high school years. I loved my time there, but knowing what I know now, there was so much stupid shit going on then. Life gets better as you get older, I reckon!
I told all my friends about my blog early this year, and I know some of them read it, but they rarely comment or even acknowledge it when we talk in real life. I didn’t bother telling them the new address when I changed it. If they care, they can ask me!
I can’t believe someone unlinked you cause you didn’t read their blog for a couple of days.
November 10th, 2005 at 4:28 am
I’ve been unlinked by a few people and it did get to me. It’s like my blog isn’t worth reading anymore because I don’t read theirs. I read the blogs because I like them. They don’t have to respond and comment on mine. Yours, Corinna, is a great blog which I read at work when I’m feeling unloved and mistreated by THE MAN, when I need something smart and real. The fact that your dig mine too is a bonus.
You’re so right. It’s very high school of people to unlink you.
You’re aces and no mistake. A friend abroad.
xxx
November 10th, 2005 at 5:09 am
FUCK YEAH!!!
You tell ‘em Corinna! i’m fucking sick and tired of shitty fucking people saying things like “add a comment and i’ll comment you back” COMMENT ON WHAT!?!?Especially if you don’t even know me! what the hell do they want me to fucking say? “Man, all 5 of my dogs have fleas i just spent 3 hours up to my elbows in stinking tea tree shampoo only to find out i’m the one with the cocking fleas” or “Remember last night at the pub when we all chipped in £12 and put the first Ramones album on the jukebox 40 times?” oh no i forgot you live in fucking Turkey/Peru/Sri Lanka and all you ever say is “I’m a bit bummed….comment please” Fuck you! I’ve got bigger fish to fry with my life you mono-phrased cabbage!! like training for the world air guitar championship (actually true, thats what all that Brian Mayden stuff is about!) or seeing if i can fit 14 pints of Guinness in my body or filing my sandwiches in the cabinet under “S” at work or seeing how long i can go without blinking or [b][i]ANYTHING[/i][/b] other than comment on your retarded blog for no other reason than to say “you’re bummed….don’t be…..comment please.”
if anyone has [b][i]ever[/i][/b] done this to me hear this :
[b]”I HATE YOU, AND I HAVE BETTER THINGS TO DO WITH MY LIFE THAN HEAR YOU WHINE!!![/b]
[b]Corinna you are right man i think you and Antone Bertram Claude rock like a 70’s style AC/DC world tour and thats why i read your blog and post interesting comments here….keep up the wickedawesomeradsupertiptop work jerk!![/b]
November 10th, 2005 at 12:15 pm
oh geezer! i would NEVER unlink you.
i can not believe i did not think to take risqué photos of adam in the tea towel!!!! granted it may not be appropriate for my girlfriend to take THOSE type photos…if we EVER get a digital i’ll see what i can do
November 10th, 2005 at 12:23 pm
i know man i hate being grumpy but this time of year i am always grumpy.
had my internet not gone down like that i wouldn’t even have brought it up but it was bugging the crap out of me because i couldn’t help not thinking about it with not being able to get on line for that long.
high school is one of the reasons that i have a weekly (it doesn’t cost me a penny) psychiatrist, i almost didn’t make it out.
November 10th, 2005 at 12:29 pm
i can not believe anyone would unlink you!! you are pure talent, such a good person, a great friend as i can [b]also[/b] tell from steve and so modest considering your accomplishments already in life
November 10th, 2005 at 12:34 pm
IF you are seriously training for the world air gi-tar championships i HAVE to get in on this.
i wish i had some way i could prove my skills….or at least show them off.
thanks dude abc and i think you are super cool and rad tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo !!!! you make us laugh A LOT
November 11th, 2005 at 12:47 pm
Ack! I’ve been guilty of linking then unlinking some blogs.
November 11th, 2005 at 7:00 pm
i’m a big believer that if you’ve got nothing to say, you should say nothing (my friends may contest this point). I don’t read you every day… I don’t do ANYTHING every day, but I do read everything whenever I do stop by. I have no idea who reads my blog except when they comment. I link people so I don’t have to remember who I read and where their blog lives. But I haven’t linked eveyone I read, or deleted people I don’t. Can people actually tell who is reading their blog, wtf, hows that work???
I think people that demand comments are way too self involved, but to each their own I guess. I liked high school (i didn’t have to work too hard) but hated the people. Strangely i’ll usually acknowledge (for some reason I can’t remember how to spell that) or talk to people I know from highschool, unless I can’t remember their name (I used to know almost everyones name even if I didn’t know them) in which case I might just wave and keep walking. My friends find it strange, as this is not something they do, but yeah, I just feel compelled to say hi to people I know.
A guy from highschool who I was a real cunt to was in one of my uni classes, we sat together and became friends, he’s a good guy, and i’m not sure what the moral to this story was. I’m going to stop writing now