[b]The Positives[/b]
I have a stronger support system than I ever had before.
The numbness and ‘swooshing’ head shit have passed.
Swearing IS good for you.
Out in public I’m oddly extremely nice to people, I noticed it a while a go but even if I’m totally losing it and go out for a walk, for a tan, to shoppers even when I started crying in Star Bucks I got it back together fast and come on it was sports and Tiger winning another major geesh of course I’m going to cry.
Now this is NOT an every day thing just something I noticed and thought was good because I was rarely nice to ANYONE in public.
When I’m feeling good I feel really good.
When I’ve REALLY lost it it has only been in the privacy of my own home. [Mrs. E must be loving this shit]
I’m not alone.
Although the lows are bad I have still been able to exhibit much more control with my temper than before I entered a therapy type that worked for me.
Adam isn’t going any where and Gus can’t leave.
I get to live.
