[b]I used to have this thing[/b] where I said JUST KIDDING after almost EVERYTHING I said and people hated it, I hated it, it was really fucking annoying and I did it because I was so insecure about my sense of humor and living in a constant state of sarcasm and being able to dish it WAY better than I�ve ever been able to take it. Although years ago I somehow learned to laugh at myself and that has really helped in accepting myself. But I am still always feeling misunderstood which I�m sure is a pretty normal feeling I don�t think I�m special or need a cookie or anything. I�m glad I�ve cut down on saying JUST KIDDING as much and replaced it with ‘if you aren�t willing to throw yourself in front of a bus for your comedy you shouldn�t try and be funny’. I try to not try because when I do try I�m not funny but I get the gist of what I�m saying.
