Taking a Break
Ok so I can’t just disappear. Oops.
My Facebook and Twitter are down but I will be back. Soon.
I just need a break.
I’m supposed to be over all the shit that happened but I’m not. I’ve never lost this many friends at one time in my life before. I’m having a real hard time figuring out who my friends actually are right now and I feel lost and alone. I don’t like who I am and don’t feel I am anywhere near where I should be for 31 in *cough* three weeks and two days.
I don’t even know how to take my blog down; I had to call my host company.
I don’t feel I can get over what I’m supposed to be over already if I am all over the internet. It just hurts, I end up in tears too much: over the fucking internet. I understand that shit happens I get that but I am just sick of how much of my energy goes towards being hurt over not being forgiven, not being able to express from my side from my opinion, what happened because no one cares what I’ve gone through, and yeah that is really fucking hard. And so until I genuinely don’t care anymore I’m taking a break.
I’ll try leaving the comments open for now and I’ll converse with you in there if you want, but last time I checked my stats it didn’t look like many people even read here anymore. I have no idea how to check how many people subscribe to my feed. Really, I can put up a post add some photos and that is about it.
May 21st, 2008 at 9:21 am
I am always here! If you ever need to talk…
May 21st, 2008 at 9:50 am
if you weren’t i don’t know WHAT i’d do!
May 21st, 2008 at 10:17 am
We’re here too. Love you
May 21st, 2008 at 10:18 am
There really are some of us out here still, hoping that everything will be alright!
Don’t disappear forever!
Specifically, don’t still be disappeared still in about a month or so when those of us that really specifically DO want to be around you, finally can be once again (even if only for a few days)
May 21st, 2008 at 10:43 am
I’ve rarely commented (not sure I ever have actually, but maybe once or twice) but I’ve read here for some time. I respect your brutal honesty, and I can see where that could cause you problems with certain elements. I won’t use the trite cliche “You have friends out here” but instead perhaps even more compelling “you have strangers out here that pay attention, and like what you do.” Don’t be too much of a stranger
May 21st, 2008 at 12:09 pm
I agree. The most important thing is that you take care of YOURSELF first. If taking a break is what you need, then do what you need to do. Your well being is much more important than a blog post, a Twitter message, a Facebook status update or anything of that sort. Do what feels right for you and what will make you feel nurtured. The world will be waiting for when you want to post next. Positive energy and vibes to you.
May 21st, 2008 at 12:18 pm
Thinking of you. Take all the time you need. A blog really isn’t that important. You are. *HUG*
May 21st, 2008 at 12:51 pm
You know it. I know it. You’re picking up what I putting down. You’re a smart cookie. I’m always here..and there…you know where to find me!
May 21st, 2008 at 2:13 pm
Breaks, vacations, sabbaticals, or whatever you want to call them, are wonderful. I love them. You always come back with so much more energy & enthusiasm, you’ll feel great. And you will be back because you know that this blog is more than just a popularity contest or about getting into some clique.
I think you have a perspective on the world that deserves to be shared. A perspective that people love to know. So whenever you feel the need to write there will be people there to read it.
May 21st, 2008 at 4:13 pm
break me off a piece of THAT kit kat bar
May 21st, 2008 at 4:42 pm
Whatever happens, just know that I have read a TON of different blogs, literally hundreds and hundreds, and yours is one of the very best I have ever read. You really are a talented writer.
I don’t really read blogs much anymore. Since I stopped writing my blog, I’ve kind of moved toward other things. I just stopped by to see what you are up to.
All the best you you.
May 21st, 2008 at 4:51 pm
I’ll be here for sure. I’ve lost whole support groups before, and know it sucks. It’s worse for you, I know, because it’s under such horrible and stupid circumstances.
May 21st, 2008 at 5:22 pm
In Google Reader you have 37 subscribers. I don’t know how to check the others, but you could always ask your readers that have different feed sources, it is easy to check. I only come here when you post, via Google reader. No posting, no visiting! So post, dammit. Of course, when you’re ready and able to post. AND! I still cannot get into my Paypal account. Do you have other payment options for your monkey lovin’?
May 21st, 2008 at 5:41 pm
We care. Relax, take a deep breath. We’ll patiently wait for your return.
May 21st, 2008 at 9:26 pm
I’ve deleted my blog twice. But I always end-up blogging again. I think breaks are fine, but don’t take down the blog. Maybe just an occasional post to let us know what you are up to. And if you have lost friends, then it was meant to be. When you really find *best* friends, they become like family, and you cannot lose them. Does that make sense? If you feel you have lost friends, then maybe they were not true friends to start. Perhaps it was superficial. Who knows. All I know is that when I fight with friends we often make-up later, and if we don’t, they are not worth having as friends.
May 22nd, 2008 at 1:48 am
In the words of Jason Lee: “Fuck ‘em if they can’t take your joke… and smash their window” I’m not sure how that statement helps in this situation but it has always cheered me up, as have you. Listen up ‘cos you know me and you’ll know I rarely dole out any kind of useful advice so this (as you know) is a gonna be like hens teeth for ya.
You help so many others just by being yourself here on this blog. I’m not certain I’ve ever said thanks for this. Sure I’ve said thanks for that Beer, “You got a light?… Thanks” cheers for the cool link etc, but this blog has helped me a lot in the past. So whatever happens, whatever anybody else says or thinks, Fuck ‘em if they can’t take OUR jokes… and smash their window.
Thanks
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P.S Bert says woof (again).
C.J
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May 22nd, 2008 at 12:19 pm
Don’t disappear! I know I don’t stop by as much as I used to, but I love just knowing that Corinna is still there being her most excellent self!
If you ever need to sound off about anything, you’ve got my e-mail address, and you can trust that I WILL be there on the other end for you!
May 22nd, 2008 at 1:43 pm
fuck ‘em, lets go blogging.
May 22nd, 2008 at 1:45 pm
I don’t subscribe to your feed (or indeed anyone else’s, I wouldn’t know how) but I do check in here (sort of) regularly, and am certainly interested to hear what you have to say.
May 22nd, 2008 at 2:18 pm
I am here too. always will be. i used to think i’d never get to the point where i wasn’t intense about all and sundry and where letting go felt legit. it changed only when i realised how much others fed off my crap and that it kept both them and me in even more crap. that and as you said how much energy it takes and that should be weighed to the value of an activity. my values changed when i decided i had value.
love ya, girl!
enjoy the break, really try to make it about you…
May 22nd, 2008 at 6:23 pm
Love you very much and can’t wait to see you in June!!!
May 23rd, 2008 at 7:39 am
I’m always here too:) Besides a little weeding of the friend garden - at any stage in life - is always a good thing. Grow, blossom and bloom into whomever you are to be and screw “them” other people:)
Love reading so keep it up xoxoxo
May 23rd, 2008 at 7:41 am
On Bloglines you have 14.
Feel better soon, I know it’s an instinct to curl up into a ball and tuck away but isolating yourself will make you think too much. (I say this from my house in the woods, with only a cat and a dog to speak with…)
“Hey Pot, the Kettle called…”
May 27th, 2008 at 5:33 am
Stats are lame. Do it because you want to. I’m pretty green when it comes to stats and feeds, etc, but there is something magical about getting your words out there. We appreciate you and your writing. Follow your gut. You rock girl, just go and do whatever you need to. We’ll be waiting in the wings cheering you on.
May 30th, 2008 at 8:11 am
Just popping in.
remember when I took your link off my blog and you freaked out? You take the internets too seriously. No hard feelings over here though